As an aspiring paid music photographer, I’m no stranger to how difficult it can be to getting your work out there to people. While yes, there are a plethora of forums for me to air my images and what I have to say regarding them, there’s no guarantee that a mass amount of people will see them. It’s quite disheartening, even more so when you attempt to reach out to more esteemed magazines for their approval just to receive the coldest of all replies as none at all.
Sometimes it can be hard to differentiate between people genuinely disliking my work and me just assuming that’s the case. Yes, as the title states I am my own worst enemy. I’m the queen of self sabotage and there is no limit to how much I can often question myself and my abilities. It makes things ten times more difficult for me to even want to put my work online when I’m plagued with the idea that people aren’t going to care or like what I have to show them.
This isn’t something new, this disappointingly is a recurring process of thought that has found me after every show I have ever shot at. Though it’s a feeling much more prominent in the past year, when I began to work with bands AAA to document how they prepare for and work a show. I don’t want to be bogged down by the thought that I’m not good enough any longer and I feel 2015 is the perfect time to get into a new mindset. I’ve always worked hard but I haven’t really given myself the chance to play by giving myself praise after the work is done – this year I intend to change that. It’ll take some work and hopefully more frequent blog posts but I’m going to start airing more of my photos online for the world to see. Shares would be appreciated, when they come. In the mean time, thank you for tolerating the waffling of my inner thoughts.